If you don’t process your past, it will define your present.

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Memories tucked deep away in our bodies can influence everything from the words we say to the places we go to the careers we choose. Through processing what we remember, we can better understand ourselves and incite positive change. Those same memories can also upend our reality. 

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When I was 30 years old, I remembered I was sexually, psychologically, and emotionally abused as a child. It all came back to me on June 29, 2023. That night, my mind restored memory after memory like the download of a horror movie. I was abused for years by two close relatives. 

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My repressed memories start at age five and continue even into my early twenties. How could this be my life? It’s the type of stuff you read about and never dream it could be you. Even now, a year later, the reality is hard to reconcile, but I never want to forget again. These memories subconsciously tormented my past and consciously heal me today.

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I’m now writing a memoir so that the whole story may live in this physical reality and not just in my head. I want people to know they’re not alone. We all have shame in our pasts.

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Through therapy, love, and support, I’m changing into a person I truly admire. It’s my life’s purpose to end child sexual abuse and help people discover their own life’s mission. I’ve created this blog to document my healing with the hope it can help others. 

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I hope it can help you.